i really want javier and raĆŗl to have some kind of hookup or sexual tension damn now that would be good ( and I deadass thought javier’s dad was going to kiss him on the lips when they were walking away the football pitch- that would have been creepy af but i’m all for it

Ah, well, I honestly couldn’t tell them apart at first and I hate Raul so, but you live your dreams, anon.

And another anon (or the same?):

do you like white boys? how is it to be a pakistani-american in the us?

Not especially. And it’s fine, I guess? I’d say I’m pretty lucky and have class privilege that shields me from a lot.

Your favorite word is Heh

AndĀ ā€œlolā€. It’s so hard to convey tone online and I still use full casing and periods so I feel like I come off a bit dry if I don’t add those to soften my comments. 😮 <- Like that too. šŸ˜› <– And that.Ā 

ok?

Thanks for checking in, anon, and so succinctly! šŸ˜›

I dunno, I’ve kinda plateaued a bit, I don’t feel nearly as bad as I did a the start of all this, it’s just fatigue and mild but constant headaches. I just can’t muster the energy to post. I still haven’t caught up on TV, I always say I’m going to and then never can. But it’s a little funny, in a very sad kind of way, how since I last posted about which shows/ships I wanted to gif, already several of them have run into trouble.

As I said before, I have been reading more! After finishing some of the books that’ve come out recently, I’ve switched to going through old fics and man, it’s been pretty great. Haven’t been in a fic-reading mood for the last…years, it feels like, despite the few recommended fics here and there, but I’ve just been tearing through not only a lot of old faves, I even finished these two long ass SQ fics I’d been saving forever. Now that I look it up…six years? It. Was. Worth it!

To go off on a tangent for a bit, gosh, I stopped watching OUAT pretty early on, despite liking the first season so, so much, and SW was probably my favorite ship in the end, but I don’t know of a single other subtext couple I’ve ever shipped that belonged together as much as SQ did. It was written so deeplyĀ intoĀ the show! This isn’t just me shipping anything f/f, I honestly don’t get how you could set up all those pieces they did for the OUAT premise and then not put them together.

Anyway! Heh. Yeah, I’m around, I’m all right-ish. How about you, anon?

Me worrying myself about your health. ?. Please take time to heal and feel better. At least in here. We miss you a lot and we’re gonna miss you on juliantina week but we prefer that you take your time and feel better

Aww! That’s super sweet but super unnecessary, anon. I only brought it up to whine a bit but mostly to explain the delays and quiet periods, which will probably continue. I’ll definitely rest as needed, as I have, again, no worries on that, lol.

So…what about that news? How was the surprise. I’m shaking right now.

And same anon(?):

We missed you at the surprise party

Ah, anon, super sorry for this late reply. I keep on saying that I’m going to be late on everything so just accept a general apology for all replies and requests but…sorry.

Just to kind of explain, right as Ramadan was ending, at the beginning of June, I was hit with this headache + nausea combo that just flattened me. It was constant, it was waking me up from sleep, I just lay in bed. As the days would go by, I would think I was getting better, and that’s when you’d see an occasional post or gifset, and then a day later it’d be worse again. I thought I was good the weekend Dark came out and then on that Monday it hit again, as worse as ever.

I’ve fallen behind on everything, although when the headache wasn’t too bad I was able to get some reading done. I’m still not fully back but finally easing back into work and going to try to answer some asks and get back into the rhythm of watching things more regularly and preparing for some of my fave shows to return.

THE NEWS. The news. I was super excited! I followed it all from my phone. A movie AND a series! Ngl, if had been just a movie, I’d have been like, all right, okay, at least we get two more hours of them, this isn’t a goodbye yet, it’ll be mostly about them so it’ll be as much content as a bunch of episodes, and the plot can’t be too messy, right, there’s less chance to ruin them. Buuut, their best parts have always been in their quiet, long moments, and that’s not really something I see a movie able to give them, so I’m super glad we get a series for that. The movie can be for the fun and flirty banter and the series can have the nice long angst with the payoffs.Ā 

Oh, and none of you better be writing in cheaty/deathy ideas for the movie! For five seconds I forgot the world in which they live so I was like, at least they can’t kill them off but y’all better not be writing them transmigrating! šŸ˜›

Hi Boo, Do you work in the psychology or human behavior fields? Because your character analyses are pretty deep and thoughtful and my inner mess is utterly grateful when they come up in my feed.

Whoa, that’s super flattering, anon. Thank you! But no, not at all. If anything, even though we’re learning how inaccurate the right-left brain model is, I’m totally a logic/hard science kinda person. I went through school loving math and barely scraping by in English and anything else requiring analysis.Ā 

But I guess we’re not talking about analyzing from that point of view, right, metaphors and motifs and themes and all that? In terms of looking into character motivations, I start from a place of loving them both and reason backwards from that. And in general, I tend to approach other people (and characters) as having reasons that make sense to them for things they do, it’s not about me or what I’d do.Ā 

Oh a developper? Front? Back? Or fullstack?

Full stack. But I prefer back end, especially database work. I feel like that kind of comes through in how I watch and post about media? Looking for patterns and not just parallels to gif but filing things away as a specific archetype, a specific trope, comparing across media, how is this show doing compared to that show, taking into account different times, genres, networks, countries, etc. Like, obviously it’s about personal enjoyment but all the rest matters somehow too. So when things stand out, they’re really noteworthy.