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my girl juliana was holding onto her neck for dear life, and val is like “we wouldn’t have stopped, wouldn’t we?” bitch, you were the one that took off her jacket, cant blame a girl for wanting to go all in. aarrghh these baby gays

Hahah. She wanted confirmation. Because she knew she wasn’t gonna stop.

And another anon:

something that strikes me as odd in the new Juliantina car scene: that little brushing of their lips at 22 seconds was also cut in the previous version. the censors really don’t wanna see their lips touching, huh

Considering how stringent censorship has seemed to be, it really is a marvel we’re getting anything at all, let alone all this. 

And another anon:

I never would have thought a telenovela would be treating us better than TV shows lmao 2019 is really wild

It really is amazing how this has gone down. They’re fairly central characters, very embedded in the main plot with all the resultant drama, but are also in this (mostly) sweet bubble. 

And another anon:

that opening was gay as the scene. televisa are the real shippers

The thought of someone sitting there and editing that? Adorable.

And another anon: 

i’m actually happy with the scene. the extra like 3 seconds it had actually made it 10x hotter. also did you notice that even after they hear the car beep Juls tried to get one more kiss in and doesn’t pull apart until Alirio actually has the door halfway open ?

Hah, I had not noticed that. She really didn’t want to stop, huh. Juls sometimes seems so restrained, it was revelatory getting even the original car scene but this? Wow.

And another anon:

i’m so happy maca posted the bts version cause we get to see the whole scene from both angles ??

Oh, yes. The fandom should trend for the alt cuts. 😛

And another anon:

To any anyone disappointed by the kiss do me a favor and compare the original scene and this scene at the same time. Steal someone’s phone or whatever other screen you need and compare all the two kisses together and you will see the difference they make

Oh, no doubt there’s a big difference, maybe they were just hyped up a bit too much. I’m sure it’ll be fine.

And another anon:

on the juliantina forever thumbnail that picture of maca on the far end makes her look exactly like sutton brady

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I legit stopped everything else I was doing to stop and ponder this, anon, and at first I was like, I don’t really see it? And then realized I was thinking of Sutton Foster and you meant Sutton Brady. You know…yeah, a bit. I can see it. And lol, isn’t this such a TBT type opening shot, lol. 

And another anon:

Holy Barbara and Maca went for it in that car scene lol. Juls CHASING after vals lips and then her lip bite good lord I’m gonna melt. The thirst… *faints*

Honestly, their choices here, for two actresses who can’t have had much experience with how other same-sex screen couples act, they are doing such a good job with coming across so naturally. Maybe they’re literally treating each other like any other love interest? It’s pretty amazing, whatever they’re doing.

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I’ve been crying silently and trying to gulp down sobs for most of today. My homophobic mom has been staying with me for a few months now and I can’t let her know how affected I am by this. 

I’ve had a lot of moments like this recently, actually, because of all the onscreen fictional f/f deaths, because like I’ve said, I’ve come to terms with being a lesbian, but I’m deeply closeted and will remain so, probably for the rest of my life, and I know it’s just TV but it’s all I had. The attitude behind it is too real. And I’m so sad and resentful that I’ve had to lock this down, that I can’t just tell her why I’m upset, and I’m so angry at her, because it’s not fair, but what can either of us do? A few weeks back I just broke down sobbing in front of her and she was so worried and asking me why, again and again, “if you can’t tell your mother, who can you tell?” and it’s so suffocating and I feel so guilty because what if I’m underestimating her, but the cost of being wrong there is just so high. 

But I’m so full of anger and grief and guilt, that I’m conflating so much of this in my head, that these are real deaths and it’s not right to link them with fiction, that it was done by a Muslim, that again I’m so upset with my mother. But I’m sorry, I’m sorry, this isn’t about me, I’m sorry.

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I’ve been crying silently and trying to gulp down sobs for most of today. My homophobic mom has been staying with me for a few months now and I can’t let her know how affected I am by this. 

I’ve had a lot of moments like this recently, actually, because of all the onscreen fictional f/f deaths, because like I’ve said, I’ve come to terms with being a lesbian, but I’m deeply closeted and will remain so, probably for the rest of my life, and I know it’s just TV but it’s all I had. The attitude behind it is too real. And I’m so sad and resentful that I’ve had to lock this down, that I can’t just tell her why I’m upset, and I’m so angry at her, because it’s not fair, but what can either of us do? A few weeks back I just broke down sobbing in front of her and she was so worried and asking me why, again and again, “if you can’t tell your mother, who can you tell?” and it’s so suffocating and I feel so guilty because what if I’m underestimating her, but the cost of being wrong there is just so high. 

But I’m so full of anger and grief and guilt, that I’m conflating so much of this in my head, that these are real deaths and it’s not right to link them with fiction, that it was done by a Muslim, that again I’m so upset with my mother. But I’m sorry, I’m sorry, this isn’t about me, I’m sorry.